The Moment

A small glance...something made me look again...and suddenly, deep within, I
knew...recognised...felt in a tingling awareness the vibration of your 'Being'...You.
And it seemed for that brief spell...as though my heart cried out and leapt within
me, every fibre charged, a frisson of electricity...

Across the station platform you looked back at me...and for a moment...eyes locked, both
startled...we stared...but...as you took a step toward me...the train came in...and you were caught
up in the surging crowd, pushed forward into the waiting carriage...the doors closed...the train
left....and you were gone...I stood...bereft.

Only a moment...but for me the moment lingers still...I often wonder if you think of it at all...If
you had felt...'Connected'...and...like me...do you strain your eyes each day to scan the faces of the people passing by...wondering...hoping...that this time the train will leave and you will stay
behind ?

I Wage War Against Myself....

I wage war against myself...
because of you...
because you exist and are in the world...

thoughts of you...
knowing that you would come if I called...
that you would change everything for me...
I am afraid of that change...
I would lose myself again in finding you...
I need this time for me...
to learn who I am and who I can become...
Regretfully, and though my heart cries out...

I wage war against myself...
because of you...
because you exist and are in the world...

and the strong person who lives in my head says...
don't surrender...
don't give in...
and the soft person who lives in my heart says...
call him...
love him...
be with him...

so I wage war against myself...
because You exist and are in the world...