The Moment

A small glance...something made me look again...and suddenly, deep within, I
knew...recognised...felt in a tingling awareness the vibration of your 'Being'...You.
And it seemed for that brief spell...as though my heart cried out and leapt within
me, every fibre charged, a frisson of electricity...

Across the station platform you looked back at me...and for a moment...eyes locked, both
startled...we stared...but...as you took a step toward me...the train came in...and you were caught
up in the surging crowd, pushed forward into the waiting carriage...the doors closed...the train
left....and you were gone...I stood...bereft.

Only a moment...but for me the moment lingers still...I often wonder if you think of it at all...If
you had felt...'Connected'...and...like me...do you strain your eyes each day to scan the faces of the people passing by...wondering...hoping...that this time the train will leave and you will stay
behind ?

I Wage War Against Myself....

I wage war against myself...
because of you...
because you exist and are in the world...

thoughts of you...
knowing that you would come if I called...
that you would change everything for me...
I am afraid of that change...
I would lose myself again in finding you...
I need this time for me...
to learn who I am and who I can become...
Regretfully, and though my heart cries out...

I wage war against myself...
because of you...
because you exist and are in the world...

and the strong person who lives in my head says...
don't surrender...
don't give in...
and the soft person who lives in my heart says...
call him...
love him...
be with him...

so I wage war against myself...
because You exist and are in the world...

The Last Kiss

Come..take a kiss apon your lips one last time..a sweet parting..an ending..
Never to meet again in love..our needy arms entwined..tongues caressing..

Our Paths in life have parted..You chose your way, so different to mine..
I can no longer follow you.. I cannot live your dream and in doing so ..lose mine..

But, within you, know,that even when you leave ,your heart is safe with mine...tied with sweetest memories of very precious times we had ...

I will keep it safe for you, bound with tender threads of moments shared , of tears too and years of learning who I am and discovering ..You..

Although I can no longer share your dreams I really wish they all come true for you..
that love, success and sweet contentment walk your path and I'll celebrate each small success for you..

So..come..share this parting kiss..ignore the salty taste of unbound tears that flow, for now it is time to part..and for me a path as yet unknown...untried and frighteningly...alone....

19/02/10